Wednesday, November 30, 2011


"SHE LIVED ON LOVE STREET" (The Broken Heart of Pamela Susan Courson)

This is a channeling session done by psychic, medium Claudia Portugal with the soul that was known as "Pamela Susan Courson." the common law wife of the late singer, Jim Morrison. Pamela is here to make confessions about her life, her relationship with Jim, his death, her death and why her heart has been broken since she returned to the other side. Her goal is to keep rising into more levels of light (higher consciousness) and break free of the heartache and pain. She is sometimes at peace, wanting to move on from her past life and sometimes, she goes into lower energy and clings to her earthly identity.

This exactly what Pamela Susan Courson told Psychic Medium, Claudia Portugal. Follow-up questions follow Pamela's opening statement:

"What I wanted most was, a husband, a home and a child or maybe children, but I know I at least wanted one baby. I wanted to be married and have someone want to be with me all the time. I don't think people understand how I felt. I gave Jim a place to stay before anyone knew who he was. I took care of him, cooked for him, washed his clothes, whatever he needed and what I got for it was, he would run off for days, and weeks and be with other women. Alcohol didn't destroy our relationship, the fact he didn't want to marry me and give me a child did. I don't know why, but people keep thinking we were so in love because he always came back to me but the truth is, that was usually because he was sick, tired, needed a home cooked meal or just didn't want to be bothered. It was to get his strength back from all the running around. There were times he was more excited to see our dog Sage, than me. I was always waiting for Jim. I had boyfriends too, and part of that was revenge or to see if he cared and he really didn't, but part of it was to find somebody who would put me first. Just because Jim bought me things and let me spend his money, that wasn't enough. He was with so many women that I heard about and I spied on him a few times and saw it all myself, I always thought I could be replaced and then what would I do? I spent my life waiting for Jim to come home, to make a real life with me and to marry me. I just wanted to be married, legally, with the ceremony. I called him my husband and he never said anything but I knew sometimes it bothered him. I know to other people he usually called me his "old lady" or once in a while, his "girlfriend." There were times we were together and I felt like he loved me but those were short lived, he would suddenly become mean to me and all I wanted was his love. I would beg him to stay with me sometimes and he would leave with whoever, his friend Babe, or others and say he had to go out and I wouldn't see him for days. I wanted what Ray Manzarek and Dorothy had. Jim and I went to their wedding and I thought ours should be next.

People believed Jim and I were so in love because they would see us at parties.  I loved to go to parties, and I loved for Jim to show me off,  and I would always make sure I looked good for him.  I liked to find the right clothes and do my make-up.  I would starve myself if I gained a few pounds.   I liked to socialize and hear the latest gossip.  Jim would act like I was the center of his world at some of the parties but as soon as it seemed I was distracted, talking to other people, I would see the looks Jim gave other females that he was either sleeping with or going to sleep with.  Jim was always on the prowl, even in public.  Imagine how it made me feel.  people would tell me how beautiful I was and the man I was looking so beautiful for, was always getting involved with other women.  If you wondered why I stayed, I was waiting for him, to change and make me his one and only.  I didn't want an open relationship, I never wanted that but that was the only way I could have Jim.  He would not accept monogamy , looking back, if he had really been in love with me, I think he would have wanted only me.   After the parties sometimes, where we looked so in love, Jim would take me home and leave for the night, he didn't even spend the night with me after some of those evenings, I just felt so sad so much of the time.  I lived for Jim.  I know people will say, he wrote songs about me.  Looking back, those songs were sort of composites of me and other people he knew.  He just went with ideas, and even though I was at concerts, he never dedicated a song to me, and I always hoped he would. 

I want to talk about "Themis" the boutique Jim funded for me. Everybody thinks since my friend had a boutique, I had to have one too. Jim actually started talking to me about, finding something to do cause he was gone so much and when my friend brought up her boutique, I thought I could throw myself in something like that. I had been designing clothes since I was 14. I loved fashion more than anything else really. Jim funded the boutique and it's not like I wasn't happy he did that for me but the reason he did the photo shoot for it was because, he wanted it to make a profit. It was a business and suddenly, Jim, who never cared about money, expected a return on this boutique because he put so much into it and I did like to spend his money. He was thinking business, and he was cooperative during the photo shoot though I knew it wasn't his scene. He told me later how much he hated the clothes he had to pose in. So this was my dream, this boutique and Jim only stopped in a few times, though he was close by and even working upstairs sometimes and I wanted someone to share my dream with me, not just give me money for it. Sometimes I imagined Jim would show-up with some flowers for me and  surprise me. That didn't happen, in fact he came in drunk and disruptive. Anyone could see, he was not into what I was doing. I was with him sometimes at the recording studio or at his concerts but there were lots of times he wasn't happy when I showed up. He had so many people around him, that's why. Why did he need me? I was just the girl at home, when he needed cleaning up and someone to take care of him. People really don't understand what it was like. I didn't really make money in my boutique, it was harder to run than I thought and so many people came in just to see if Jim was around or ask me questions about him, it was a drag some of the time.

Themis was like a shiny new toy, I was in the spotlight and the photo shoot made me feel like a princess but it didn't last with Jim, I couldn't stay his princess for long. I became really vengeful with Jim. I had spent all this time waiting for him to want a life with me and not with all the other women and want to spend his time with me. I had another love too, Jean. Jean and I had a very sexual relationship. He was real royalty and exciting. He treated me well for a time, and because I wasn't allowed to go to Miami at all with Jim during his trial, I made myself sick, went into the hospital and Jim didn't rush home to me, instead he took his time getting back so I went with Jean out of the country. Jean was very sweet to me and Jim and I had not been having a sexual relationship for a long time. When Jim would show-up, I knew I wasn't getting anything sexual. He had already given it all away. Jim was becoming a father figure to me and I was like his Mother taking care of him, it got kind of sad but Jean and I had a really strong sexual thing. Jean was great until he replaced me for his next conquest. At that point, it was the end of 1970, I felt I wasn't enough for anyone. I felt like nothing. I came back to Jim and his New York girlfriend showed up and told me about their affair. It didn't surprise me, and then it was her abortion she told me about, when I wanted nothing more than to marry Jim and have his child. Nothing anyone could say about Jim and other women surprised me. Jim came back and found us there at Diane's place and Jim and I went upstairs to talk and he didn't deny anything with the New York girl, but said that he needed to go downstairs and see her. I asked him to choose me that night. My birthday was the next day and we didn't do many holidays together which always bothered me. I asked him to choose me over her and he said he would go down and talk to her and be right back and something about how I can't control him and I didn't own him. He never came back that night, I waited all night. I went downstairs to find Jim and the New York girl asleep on the floor, naked. Jim tried to get me to apologize to the New York girl for barging in. Can you believe it? I did everything for this man and I was suppose to apologize to her on my birthday. This was a big deal at the time because it just brought back how many times Jim choose other women over me, if I was sick, Jim wasn't around. I could never find Jim half the time and when I did, I really didn't like what I saw. I wanted a home, a family, a man who came home at night.  He was never going to give me a child, one time I told him I was pregnant in an attempt to get him closer to me but I really wasn't. He handed me cash to get an abortion, I was actually sort of hurt because he said he wasn't going to raise a kid.  I did some things I shouldn't have done to try to get his attention but I wanted to believe he cared. 

But I thought, since Jim seemed to be done with the Doors and done with L.A. in early 1971,  he would marry me and we would settle in Paris and live happily ever after. It wasn't the same relationship we had when we were younger and first met. We did things together but Jim was on a mission in Paris that had nothing to do with me really. He wanted to get his films shown and spend time alone writing. It seemed like he was writing all the time and I couldn't go with him. I knew more people there than he knew in Paris and yet, he was still going off on his own to drink, and I thought, meet women. His mail use to go to the Door's office in L.A. and now, it was coming to our apartment in Paris and there were things he didn't want me to see, but I saw them. Letters from women back home that he had written to. I still wasn't free and clear of Jim and other women. I started hoping Jean would take me back, even though Jim and I took this road trip to Granada and Madrid and other places, it was like he was in his own world, no talk of getting married or us moving to Paris permanently. We didn't have sex either. It had been so long but he was coughing all the time and not interested. He was sick and I kept making him go to doctors but we didn't have that same kind of relationship when we met. He didn't make me feel beautiful. So I kept thinking maybe Jean would take me back and I spent time with Jean in June of 1971 while his girlfriend was somewhere else. I kept looking for Jean on the trip Jim and I took, because I was feeling not very secure with Jim once again. Then I found out, Jim was telling people he didn't want to go back to L.A. right then but was talking about going back around September. My heart dropped, he wasn't moving to Paris, this was like a get away and he was going home to all his girlfriends back in the U.S., any one of them would marry him and I would be out. In fact, I stayed on Jim's back to create a will a couple of years before claiming the other Doors were greedy and they would take his money if he died and I would be out in the street. His will was my idea, I needed a piece of paper since I wasn't getting a marriage licensed signed. Jim gave me money, he let me buy things, but the one thing he didn't give me was love. So this is the end of it all. I started learning Jim wasn't staying in Paris because he was telling people he wasn't. I questioned him and he said that he was staying but I knew he was lying to me. He told too many people I knew there and in letters he was going back to the U.S. in the fall. It was typical of Jim to not tell me his true plans. He also told me, he was getting out of Themis since I didn't want it anymore. I really didn't care about Themis at that point but I thought, he must plan to go back to L.A. but he doesn't have plans for me there since he just wants to dump my boutique on my sister. I thought this was strange but he kept saying his legal fees were so high. I thought there was more to it. There are photos people can see of us just 5 days before Jim died. We look like a happy, loving couple on a day trip in France. Jim had a lot of wine that day, so he was easy to be around. He wasn't saying much to me about the future, in fact, nothing at all. He was there and posing for pictures with me but he was detached and still not doing well.

So then, the night before he died, we had a major fight back at the apartment after we left the restaurant across the street. I was so angry with Jim and I started to rip-up some of his poetry that he had been writing without me around. He said some really cruel things to me, they were so bad and he had done it before but this time, I felt different. It wasn't like in L.A. where I knew he'd be back. He was calling me bad names and telling me, when our credit cards arrived, since we didn't have any in Paris at the time, I could take mine and some cash and he would take his and some cash and he was going off without me. He said he was done and he had somewhere else to go. He started to go on about the heroin I kept in the apartment. I thought I tucked it away and he wouldn't know about all of it, but he knew. I am not proud of it, but I got into it due to depression. I wanted to sleep and not think about anything when Jim wasn't around and I never knew when he'd be back.

He was sick in Paris all the time, but he was leaving and once again, I was going to be left with a credit card and money, but without Jim. I mentioned the letters to other women I saw and he said he was in love with someone else and going to meet her. I don't think he was, I think he was going off alone but he would often say things just to hurt me. It went through me like a knife."

These are the questions Claudia Portugal asked Pamela Susan Courson.

1) CP: I will take down your answers, but please be sure, I am surrounded in the light of Christ and you will have to tell the truth, once and for all. When you met Jim Morrison, he was not famous and it seems like the two of you were happy, what is the real story about the beginning of your relationship?

" Jim and I met and we were young and carefree. He was always very kind and always paid attention to me, but all of the happiness was only in the very beginning. Jim was not at all allowing a serious relationship. He was a poet and believed in being carefree. Jim was very very intelligent and so I felt very important because I was with someone so worldly, it seemed. I believed in astrology and thought we were right for each other, destined to be together."

2) CP: There was constant cheating on both sides with you and Jim and then there was substance abuse on both sides, are you going to say it was just the 60's or why did all this happen in this relationship?

" Yes, it was the 60's but Jim became very popular and I felt that he was always away from me. I was no longer the center of atttention as I once was in the beginning, although it was a very short lived time period. Drugs were readily available, Jim became very unhappy and so was I with not being cared for and being ignored."

3) CP: What were you trying to get from Jim Morrison?

" I was nothing, I had nothing, and I wanted to be popular and have the title of being Mrs. Jim Morrison. He was famous and rich and I existed because of Jim. I was known because of Jim."

4) CP: Was this your first soul incarnation with Jim Morrison?

" Yes, Jim and I had no soul connection prior."

5) CP: Jim Morrison supposedly called you his "cosmic mate" and you were the women he always came back to, no matter what or who he was with. He left his entire estate to you and dedicated his poetry book to you. He gave you everything and eventually left the states to go to Paris with you. Were you his true "cosmic mate" and you obviously had this man and his love, what do you say about all that ?

"I wanted to be his cosmic mate...that's for sure and hoped at times I was, but I wasn't . I did have to go and find Jim and follow him around at times and try to figure out what his next move would be. I had stay on his back to get the poetry book dedicated to me, because at first he was going to dedicate it to Michael McClure. I told him he would look like a fag and that I deserved it, he owed it to me. It was my idea, I wish it had been his idea. I also had to stay on him about his will. Someone that young wasn't going to have a will, he never thought of it until I said the other Doors were greedy. I said some bad things about the Doors all the time to Jim in private. The money from the Doors bought me all this stuff but I always thought they took Jim away from me. Jim disowned his parents entirely and in a way, I was his only family but became less and less important to him as time went on. His sister and brother were kept in touch with secretly here and there but I was really the only stable one in his life."

6) CP: Were you abused by Jim Morrison? If so, how?

" Yes he was verbally abusive starting in 1967 on and off for the rest of his life, and by 1969 couldn't stand to be around me. He made me feel as though he was repulsed by me. Jim was a "Jekyll and Hyde" sometimes in his fits of rage when he was so drunk he would become  very mean and scream in my face.   He always said the most horrible things to me and called me a whore and other names. I sometimes didn't think Jim knew who he was talking to but it hurt. I know this is silly, but I use to blame the Santa Ana winds. When the Santa Ana winds would act up, I noticed Jim had some very dark moods."

7) CP: Did you always believe Jim would always come back to you because he always did? Did you ever worry he wouldn't?

" Yes, I worried that he wouldn't come back in the beginning, when he started staying at motels but eventually, I eased up on that and realized he would come back when he needed me. In Paris, I realized he was going to leave me and that time, I didn't think he was coming back."

8) CP: Let's fast forward to Paris, it seems romantic from all the pictures of you and Jim there and since no one knew he was a famous singer there for the most part, they don't seem to be taken for press but it seems like you were in love and happy. Five days before his death, you two look like the perfect couple touring Chantilly. What was really going on in Paris?

" Jim told me after the trial he was going to Paris and I wanted a chance with him, to have the life I wanted, Jim away from the Doors and only with me. I was feeling like we were down to our last chance. I admit, I wanted to see Jean again and he couldn't come back to L.A. or the states, because they thought he was involved in the the death of Janis Joplin. Jean told me before, he wasn't coming back. I could not risk losing Jim. I couldn't go back to being nothing with no money or status. What's more I couldn't allow myself to be dumped and publicly humiliated. Jim and I may have looked happy but he was very moody, depressed and withdrawn most of the time in Paris, running to his next drink, I didn't hang out with him on those binges and I never knew where he was a lot of the time. It was a big gamble for me, Jim sent me ahead to Paris and I wasn't even sure he was going to show-up but when he did, I thought we had a chance."

9) CP: How did Jim Morrison actually die and did you take any part in it or your friend the french count? If so, why?

"Jim was shot up with heroin. Yes I did it.Yes, Jean did take part as well, he helped me move him to the bathtub with a friend of his because I could not allow Jim to leave. Jim was leaving me and and wanted to start a new life without me. I could not allow him to do this. Yes, at first he was the love of my life but then I fell in love with Jean. I did not mean to kill him it was an accident. I meant to keep him with me in Paris.

The night before, Jim said he was leaving when he got the money, and credit cards from back home. I had no idea if he got them yet or not, so he could have left at any time and I just wanted him to stay in Paris and try to work it out with me. I thought if I gave him a shot of heroin, he would stay for some days and we could talk it out.

Jim was very sick in London a month before, he threw up blood in the bathtub after I had a hard time waking him up and I called down to the front desk of the hotel for a doctor. I used the story in London a month before, for what happened to him the night he died in Paris. I wasn't with him when he died. I did give him a shot of heroin and he never used it in Paris, or anywhere else. I gave him it to him without him knowing as he was out cold, sleeping and snoring really loud. I gave it to him not to hurt him or kill him but to keep him in Paris. I knew he was sick and he wasn't use to heroin and this stuff was really strong and thought he would just sleep like I did on it. So I gave him the shot and left for the night. I couldn't stay there with this loud snoring, sick Jim after what he said to me the night before, but I thought he would stay in Paris, not run off somewhere else with another woman and I was trying to get him to stay with me. I gave him my whole life, I didn't want him to leave because it felt different, like it was the last time and it would be the end. I don't know why but it did. We weren't the same with each other. We were like friends. He was so bored with me. I mean we went to Corsica and I thought it was going to be romantic and Jim was so bored and he kept talking about how bored he was. Jim was not in love with me anymore, I always wondered if he ever was. I think he felt sorry for me sometimes.

When I went back to California, I couldn't deal with anyone and I thought he died from the heroin but Jean had freaked out badly on me and told me we would both go to jail and he packed up and left the France with his girlfriend just hours after Jim died. Jean helped me with a friend of his move Jim's body in the bathtub, because a bath helped him up in London and I really couldn't wake him up for a long time there. Jean left me and now Jim was gone and I couldn't deal with the reality of it. I spent my whole adult life living for Jim Morrison and I had his money but I never had his love. I wasn't enough for him.

I learned things are not important, the clothes, the money, the cars, it didn't matter. I was alone and I thought maybe I could start over with a guy named Randy, but I was too much for him and what I did to Jim and the love he never gave me, haunted me the rest of my life. If you knew how many times I told myself, Jim must love me, you would call me pathetic. I had to tell myself, because most of the time, he wasn't telling me or showing me. I am sorry I may have accidentally caused his death but I think in turn, he caused mine. I wanted to be his Princess but in the end, it was a fairy tale with a dark ending. He wasn't going to stay with me and I couldn't let go, after sitting at home so many nights, with dinner cooked, waiting for him to show-up, and he never did. All the humiliation I went through with him over other women was so hard. I thought, I stayed this long, I will get what I want. My life was ruined because I tried to hang on to a man that didn't love me. Learn from my mistake because it's not worth it."

10) CP: Who was the french count to you, are you with him or Jim on the other side?

" Jean was very important to me. I wanted him more than any man I have ever wanted sexually, but he was not going to stay with me or marry me I found out. I could not afford to lose Jim. I am not with Jim on this side at all, we are not ever together, we do not communicate. There was an apology made to him in front of others when I came to this side and that was it. Jim is somewhere else, waiting for someone on earth, and that's all I know. I have seen Jean but he is with Talitha.  I am with a man named David, that's all I will say about that.  I want to be private now, even over here, this is my confession, my cleansing of my soul, it's all I need. 

I have had a life review over here if you know what that is and I saw the reality of how Jim felt about me and how I made him feel.  It was awful.  He wasn't in love with me.  I would say infactuated early on is how he felt but he was never as into me as I was into him.  I was like a family member to him and a friend but not a true love.  I have accepted that and it's over, so I wish those on earth would not be so concerned about talking about our personal life.  It wasn't good for me, I needed more than Jim could give me, not the money, the love and attention."

11) CP: After Jim's death, why did you tell so many stories about what happened? Were you even sure what happened? You told people Jim began to do heroin, was that at all true?

" No, Jim did not do heroin. Jim could not do these kinds of drugs and he despised it. I told stories because I was scared and confused. I was a heroin addict and it was an accident gone bad. No I wasnt sure what had happened. I was just trying to force him to stay with me. I was not in my right mind. You must try to understand that Jim was my only security and only way of having an identity. The Rock n' Roll Circus story is a lie about Jim dying there. He didn't go score drugs for me in Paris because I promised him I was quitting and I had plenty of drugs all over the apartment stashed. Jim went to the Rock n' Roll Circus in Paris often and hung out there. I had many friends who went there but it was too crazy for me in that place. It was weirder than anything in L.A. and one night, Jim got very drunk as usual there and apparently passed out in the bathroom. He was sick and he was spitting up some blood and he was carried out the back and brought home in a cab and dropped off at the apartment. He was very pale and out cold. I guess maybe people thought he was dead but he wasn't, he was just drunk and passed out and I don't know how or why, this story became how he died. It's so stupid. He did things like that all the time and strangers got him home or he slept it off wherever he was. That wasn't very long before he died and it was after we came back from our trip to other countries. I know Jean was so freaked out that Jim was dead and at the time, he was the only other person who knew besides me and a friend of his who helped put Jim's body in the bathtub, so Jean and this friend of his, told some friends at the Rock n'Roll Circus Jim was dead and told them how he died, from heroin. I guess that's how that myth came about. If I asked Jim to score for me, I am sure he wouldn't have done it. He didn't do it in L.A. and he wasn't going to do it where he didn't speak any french. Why would I be trying to hide my stash if Jim was ok with it? He wasn't.

One more thing about that, Jim didn't snort the heroin either. He was lying on a bed when I came home, and he was sleeping and really not feeling well. He was making a gurgling sound when he was breathing and snoring and he was out of it, not making sense when I tried to talk to him. I wasn't sure when the money and credit cards were arriving from the Doors office, for all I knew, they could have already arrived and I just wanted him to stay and sleep. I gave him a shot and he hated needles, he would not do that himself or have me do it. He made a face when I did it. When I came back a few hours later, he was not breathing or waking up. He never left the bed is what I think. I thought he was playing a sick joke on me. I was so freaked out. I also found out it was suggested he go to a movie that night, so I said we went, and then he went, because I knew I hadn't seen it. I have no idea if Jim left the apartment that night while I was gone but it really didn't look like he did. I couldn't tell anyone, I shot my husband up with heroin to get him to stay here. I didn't want them to know who he was, because someone from back home may order an autopsy and it was one dose, so it would look suspicious since I was living with him and I did it and many people knew I was around Jean and what he was into. I was going to have Jim cremated, that was the plan but they said it required an autopsy and I wasn't even trying to let anyone at home know, Bill Siddons got it out of me, like he already knew and I couldn't figure out how he knew. I had to hurry up and bury Jim because I really didn't mean to do it.  

His body was with me in the apartment for two nights on ice and I didn't look at it. I couldn't, he was blue and I couldn't look at him. I paced around, cried, yelled, calmed down, and took drugs because I was angry, sad and I had to figure out what to do next. I thought at one point, it was a bad dream. I wasn't trying to keep the press away like I told people, I wanted to keep everyone away. I thought it was probably my fault."

12) CP: You could've gone to mediums for decades and told your story, why are you telling it now?

" You are the one I needed to come to. you are a strong medium and it is through you that I have decided to come clean and let go of my earthly life."

13) CP: Do you regret your life as Pamela Susan Courson? Do you regret meeting Jim Morrison?

" I regeret the mistakes that I made. I regret that I met Jim now because he made me feel unloved and unwanted too often and that ruined me somehow. I didn't have a strong enough identity of my own. I thought all his songs were about me but I know that's probably not true and even the song "Not to touch the earth" was one song that I thought we were the two kids, running away , but it was a lie. We were never the two kids on the run, Jim had a life plan that didn't include me as his wife. He outgrew me and I outgrew him."

14) CP: What changed between you and Jim in Paris? Considering you were not together much for the past year and a half before you went to Paris, you were together a lot more it seems in Paris and on all your trips to Africa and Spain with Jim. You two according to photos and video taken, seemed quite happy and in love. Did you rekindle your romance at that time and did you feel you would be with him forever?

"Paris was to be a time Jim chose me over everything and everyone else. It didn't turn out that way. Our romance was never rekindled and I saw Jean and even some other guy while we were there together. I was sleeping with other men during the time Jim and I were in Paris. I needed to be physically wanted and touched by a man and Jim didn't give that to me in a long time. Our sex life was never great anyway, we didn't connect that way to each other, we were different sexually. I wanted someone more romantic and he was not at all romantic with me. I think he gave that to other women maybe, but not me. He was playing a role with me sometimes, I didn't like it. I needed someone to look into my eyes and he was actually kind of rough sometimes.

I took video of our trip, it was something to do. I filmed Jim and thought he would do something with the video like he did with "Feast of Friends" or "HWY." If I shot video he used, I would be involved in his career. I wasn't involved in any of those projects at all and I was trying to get us closer and it wasn't great video but it showed Jim looking at things and visiting things he enjoyed. The pictures that were taken of us less than a week before he died are nice but they are a false image of how we were. Jim was really kind of out of it from being sick, kind of detached and had a lot of wine and was starving. He was easy going that day because he had the wine. A few days later, we would have our fight and I knew he was going to leave."
15) CP: Let's go back to the fact, Jim gave you anything you wanted, money, cars, clothes, jewelry and the dream boutique any girl would be jealous of. You seemed to have really had him, why didn't you make a go of the boutique and why did you want to go to Paris?

"Ok, somehow I knew after the Miami trial, Jim was really not in love with me and he was very detached and cold to me. I mean really cold. He spent the Christmas of 1970 at a hotel and he wasn't with me at all anymore on any holiday anymore, even after ruining my birthday that year. Our relationship was in seriously bad shape. The boutique wasn't fun anymore. Jim wasn't a real partner to me or even a boyfriend, he didn't care about it other than if it made money and it wasn't. I knew our relationship was about to end if I didn't try and make it work. Jim wanted to go back to Paris, he had been there the summer before and he was going back he said after his trial was over and I loved Paris and was treated like a star there so I thought we could save this relationship since he seemed to be done with the Doors, maybe for good."
16) CP: Let's talk about your heroin addiction. Did Jim get you into heroin and were you a true addict who could not stop?

" Jim did not get me into heroin he did not do heroin.. Yes, I was heavily addicted to heroin to the point where I needed it on a daily basis almost as I got older. It ws out of control for me at certain points of time. I did other downers too. I did it because of depression. If things were not going well with Jim, I wanted to sleep it all away but I got really into that stuff. I am sorry I did."

17) CP: Was your own death an accident, or on purpose? Were you ready to leave the earth Pamela?

" Yes my death was an accident. I did not intend to take my own life yet at the time of the accident I was ready to leave the miserable life I was living.

18) CP: You had a public fight with Jim the night before he died, you were not seen in public with him again after that. Did you go to eat Chinese food, to the movies and go back to the apartment with him the night of his death? Did he listen to Doors songs and watch videos of your trips and then go take a bath?

" No I did not. Jim was sick laying on a bed when I came in and he was mumbling and his breathing sounded awful. I didn't wake him up, I gave him the shot and left for a few hours."

19) CP: Why have you had a broken heart since you came to the other side? That's a long time to be in such distress, what is wrong and how are you working on it?

" I needed so badly for Jim to love me because I felt so rejected by him. I gave my whole life for Jim but I was not good enough for him. I needed Jim or Jean to love me and be with me and yet I lost both. I needed attention, money, a name. I am now coming to terms with my mistake and trying very hard to let go and come to a place of peace and completely detach from my earth life. I never liked the fans. Jim's fans thought they knew him and they didn't. I wish the fans would stop talking about me all the time, it's not a tribute, it's kind of sad. They have it all wrong about me and Jim and how he treated me. I wish they could hear the fight we had before he left for Miami in 1969, it was brutal and he didn't want me to go with him and I wanted to go so he would be with me on that vacation after the concert, not other women. If they saw how he treated me or heard what he said to me, they would not be worshipping him. I mean he was a great poet and I know that but he wasn't a very nice man some of the time and I gave him everything. The fans want to make him immortal, and they want to make his death a great mystery. He was just a really complicated, mixed up man. I wish they would stop speculating about me and our relationship. It's crazy. They didn't know me or him personally and the ones on earth that did know us, never knew the private times we had and how unstable life with Jim always was. It would be nice if people didn't assume things about me. I wasn't his cosmic mate, I wanted to be, but I wasn't. I wanted to marry him and have a child but he wasn't going to do that with me. I wanted to leave the states for good with him, but I believe he was going to go back in the fall to some of his women or a particular woman somewhere. I saw the note he sent to the Doors accountant and he said we weren't going back but he told people I knew that he was going back in the fall and I saw it in some of his letters I wasn't suppose to see. The desk he used in the apartment in Paris had a lock on a drawer.   He thought he could keep things from me but he should've known he couldn't."

20) CP: Final words you wish to share with the public, how is anyone to believe this is true?

" I am truly sorry I ended Jim's life so soon before his time. I have come to tell the truth so that I may be free and move to a higher level and be at peace. I want to be at peace and let go of the torment. I am gratedul you were willing to do this interview. You are a strong soul and you are the one who has helped me to come to terms with my mistakes. Thank you Claudia. I think if the fans and people who are so curious about Jim's death read this, it makes a great deal of more sense than some of the crazy theories people have put out. Jim wasn't stupid, and I don't think he would ever mistake my heroin for cocaine. He didn't want to snort lines on a table when he came home feeling sick that day. I know his friend Alain has given some stories about that day, Jim was obviously unwell. I did call Alain but Jim was already dead when I called so I could start dealing with it. Alain was nice and helped me but he never knew the truth, I couldn't tell anyone, protecting both myself and Jean. Alain had to sense something was up though because Jean showed up later before he left France when Alain was still at the apartment. If Jim had been at the Rock n' Roll Circus to score drugs that night, even for me, and they brought him back dead and put him in a bathtub, I would not have given such an unbelievable account of that night. I did the best I could, I was sort of out of my mind but trying hard to think. I would have wanted to know who did what to Jim and would've called the police and had them investigate his death. I would not lie to cover that up and I would not have known that supposedly Jim sampled heroin, or what he was doing, would I? But I would want to find out how he died and if someone killed him. There would be no proof he was there scoring for me if he was alone and I wasn't in danger of anything if he had been returned to the apartment dead. But my story was not the greatest, but was a recollection based on London a month earlier so I could describe what happened when Jim was really sick and took a bath. You need to understand, I was an American girl, in France, who had hardly any money left, I had very little cash because the money had not yet come from the Doors office but I wasn't sure if Jim had it or not. I didn't find it, so I was alone, and the man I called my husband, a rock singer from America just died in the apartment we shared, possibly because I gave him one of my drugs to keep him asleep for awhile. I had to be careful what I did and what I said. If Jim had died any other way, with anyone else, anywhere else, I would want to know where, how, who and why. I would not quickly bury him and get the hell out of Paris. I had something to hide and that's why I did it. People can be so stupid. Some man shows up named Sam and writes a book years and years later and people fall for it. It would not make sense for me to lie about that night if Jim died anywhere else. I would want to find out who did it and how it happened."


  1. Did Patricia Keneally pay for this "channeling" session???

    1. It seems she would have doesnt it!?

    2. LOL I was thinking the same thing, Patricia, you are a fake! and this is BULL SHIT!

    3. She clearly is Claudia Portugal. The clues are all there as she knows that HER character in The Doors movie is a composite and puts that on Pamela when Jim did write his songs about her. She is also trying to push that he and Pamela are not soul mates and this was their first soul encounter. Thirdly, the fact that Pamela would believe her story about her relationship with Jim would mean that neither Diane or Jim were believed. Surely, both knew that she was just an obsessed fan at that point and the time they were intimate amounted to only a few days in the same month and never to be repeated.

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    5. Oh, I see, the "psychic" is "Claudia Portugal". Oh! Clever move there Miss (Kennely) Kennealy, minus the Morrison. That just totally throws everyone off, there's no way anyone will ever figure out this was you because you gave this "psychic" the name of "Claudia Portugal". She is such an idiot.

    6. @Kathleen M Did you read the channeling session with Jim Morrison? If there ever was Patricia Kennealy behind this, I think that she would try to focus the attention on her the whole time and she wouldn't allow the writer of this post to write about this girl named Rebecca. I could be wrong but I follow Patricia on Facebook and she recently wrote a post about Jim being her husband etc. The whole thing doesn't make too much sense if she was behind this.

    7. Hello,

      Since the author of this "reading" never identified themselves people are free to draw their own conclusions.

      Whether or not "Kennealy" herself or an especially devoted minion of "Kennealy's" is behind this is just an opinion, of course.

      However, this "reading" makes several references to "the girl from New York" and "Kennealy" is New York City, born and raised. Coincidence?

      This "psychic" puts a lot of confessions into the mouth of the target of "Kennealy's" undying hatred and jealousy, the late Pamela Courson-Morrison and gets a few basic facts wrong.

      These "confessions" are rumors and accusations that "Kennealy" has been spreading for years about the woman Jim Morrison chose instead of her (rumors and accusations that have since been disproven, much to "Kennealy's" very obvious dismay).

      "The Scales of Justice"? Given "Kennealy's" ugly, jealousy-driven and disgusting attacks on the late Pamela Courson-Morrison, the title of this reading only lends further credence, in my opinion, that "Kennealy" was behind this:

      "She Dances in a Ring of Fire"


      "An Open Letter to Jim's Fans"


      SatireKnight, "Strange Days" Review


      All anyone knows about "Kennealy's" claims about being "married" to Jim Morrison is that these claims come from her and her alone, that former friends of "Kennealy" herself, the surviving Doors, former employees of The Doors and friends of Jim and Pam all adamantly deny "Kennealy's" claims.

      "Patricia Kennealy: 'Tiffany Talks'. Your Ballroom Days Are Over Baby!", by Janet M. Erwin (warning, this is a long read. A long but very revealing read.):


      It would appear that "Kennealy" was no more Jim Morrison's wife that you or I and that if someone actually did contact Jim Morrison through a psychic, "Kennealy" probably wouldn't like what Jim had to say about "Kennealy", his true feelings about her, her treatment of Jim and her treatment of Pamela.

      In my opinion there is more evidence to support that "Kennealy" or a "Kennealy" fan wrote this than there is to support that this someone making contact with the late Pamela Courson-Morrison.

    8. Sorry, but I have agree with the others. This "psychic reading" just reeks of Kennealy.

      It is so obvious that this Kennealy trying to keep the "Pam murdered Jim" rumors alive (just give it up already Patricia! The circumstances surrounding Jim's death have been explained and you have been found to be less than believable - to put it mildly).

      This was interesting. An article where Nico talks about her romance with Jim Morrison. Nico met Morrison in 1967, before Morrison was unfortunate enough to meet Kennealy, and yet Nico's story is so similar to Kennealy's - the bloodletting, the "bonding", the talk of marriage, Nico dyeing her hair red, just like Kennealy does.

      Did Patricia Kennealy perhaps steal Nico's story and turn it into her own? Kennealy has been known to do that.

      "Nico stated in 1985, 'I like my relations to be physical and of the psyche. We hit each other because we were drunk and we enjoyed the sensation. We made love in a gentle way, do you know? I thought of Jim Morrison as my brother, so we would grow together. We still do, because he is my soul brother. We exchanged blood. I carry his blood inside me. When he died, and I told people that he wasn't dead, this was my meaning. We had spiritual journeys together.'

      Nico wanted Jim Morrison to join her brotherhood, and he obliged. They cut their thumbs in the desert with a knife and let their blood mingle. Such a ritual form of devotion appealed to their shared sense of theater, but Nico wanted even more. She wanted Jim Morrison to share not just her blood, but her son. She suggested to him that he might like to propose marriage to her. He laughed himself off his chair. She hit him, they fought, and when they got tired, they made up. That was the routine nature of their alliance, day after day - affection, argument, rancor, resolution. 'I was in love with him, and that is how love goes, isn't it? He was the first man I was in love with, because he was affectionate to my looks and my mind. But we took too much drink and too many drugs to make it, that was our difficulty. Everything was open to us, there were no rules. We had a too big appetite.'

      'He had a fetish for red-haired shanties, you know, Irish shanties. I was so much in love with him that I made my hair red after awhile. I wanted to please his taste. It was silly, wasn't it? Like a teenager.' She kept her hair tinted red until he died."


      I guess a woman by the name of Eva Gardonyi had a similar Pagan, bloodletting ritual thing with Jim Morrison. Sounds like these were just the type of topics he liked to explore and that he didn't consider anyone he did any "ceremonies" with his girlfriend - let alone his "wife" or his "soulmate".


  2. Im sorry but this just does not ring true. I call shenanigans!

  3. the channeling fact in this doesn't strike me as odd, but I don't know what to think of it, I know for a fact that some people who decease come through via transmitted messages for they still have some remains they want to clear/clean up. in this context i get this .... but this is not just something to clean/clear up and we are talking accidental murder here ... and not just the most common of men, Jim Morrison of all people ... as I read the Michael Hutchence channeling, to be honest what i read in there is nothing new to me, a lot can be 'transmitted' through common sense and good thinking ...

    1. In this case, in what appears to be Patricia (Kennely) Kennealy putting words and "confessions" into the mouth of the late Pamela Courson-Morrison, unfortunately for Miss (Kennely) Kennealy and for all of the others who love to hate Pamela Courson-Morrison, the claims of Pam "murdering" Jim Morrison have all be been completely debunked by not only Marianne Faithfull but also by many eye-witnesses (and it's only fair to point out that unlike "Kennealy" none of these eye-witnesses had a "memoir" or forged letters and poems they were trying to profit from) and the paramedics who responded to the emergency call regarding Jim Morrison on the night he died.

      Sorry, but a vindictive individual with the mindset of a stalker, or a favorite minion of the "girl from New York" who has demonstrated that she is a vindictive individual with the mindset of a stalker, is trying very hard to put one over on you.

      It's funny. The object of "Kennealy's" sad, pathetic obsession is not Jim Morrison, it's Pamela Courson-Morrison. You know - the other and less worthy female, in "Kennealy's" eyes anyway, who took the man "Kennealy" felt entitled to. (Some Mommy issues there, 'Trish?)

      When I say funny, I do mean that I find Miss (Kennely) "Kennealy's" inability to get over her jealousy of Pamela Courson-Morrison to be truly amusing. But then again, we reap what we sow :-)

  4. This is Patricia Keneally;s lame a attempt to bullshit the rest of us, give it up already

    1. Maybe it is mary werbelow that he is waiting on.

    2. Mary Werbelow opted to keep herself out of the Jim Morrison circus after his death so not many people know she was his true love and the one that broke his heart. He was still calling Mary even he and Pam lived together. I don't think Jim Morrison ever truly recovered from the breakup.

      So if there is anything to an afterlife, yes, I think Jim would be pretty happy to see Mary and I think she would be pretty happy to see him. She has stated that she never had connection like that with anyone and that she regretted not giving Jim Morrison a second chance.

      But, from what I can gather, "the 'girl' from New York" is definitely NOT his soul mate. People don't usually view their stalkers as their one true soul mate.

      This is not a genuine reading. This is libelous, offensive, jealousy-driven and just a sick thing to do.

    3. I don’t believe his soul mate is Patricia .
      What is your thought on this ?

    4. This reading was interesting. I like the part about him being happy on the "other side", that always a comforting thought.

      The only I have a problem with is the cause of death. I know people really like to debate this but numerous eye-witnesses, all of whom have nothing to gain by telling their stories, have confirmed that Jim Morrison died as a result of mixing heroin with alcohol in a Paris nightclub.

      I know there are people who suspect Courson and I know there are people who think Jim Morrison "bled out" while sitting in a tub but those stories have been disproven. The paramedic who responded to the call and other eye-witnesses have confirmed that the bathtub came into the picture as means of trying to revive Jim Morrison that night.

      Again, I don't know why people who are not trying to sell a "memoir", like "Kennealy", or who are not trying to promote themselves by falsely claiming to have a deep relationship with Jim Morrison, like "Kennealy", would have to gain by lying about Morrison purchasing and ingesting heroin on the night he died.

      So I do believe that was the cause of death.

      I appreciate you sharing this with me but I get the feeling this was not a genuine reading either. There aren't a lot of "paranormal" stories surrounding Jim Morrison, you think there would be. Who knows? Maybe he doesn't want to "speak" with psychics - lol!

      People have had vivid dreams about Jim Morrison, which I find interesting. Maybe that is his preferred means of communication. I don't know.

      I'm glad we are on the same page as far as "Kennealy" not being Jim's secret "soul mate". All it takes is a little research to debunk those claims. (This "Scales of Justice" reading really is offensive.)

      Thanks for your response and thanks for the link! :-)

    5. This is just out of curiosity. What is your opinion on.....
      1. look at this link and seethe name of who posted it and the date.

      2. I tried to find the quote again I could not find it , I had read a quotes by ray manzarek that explained the relationship of Jim and Pam. It’s stated in the comment that Pam wanted to get him away from rock ‘n’ roll and when she did four months later he was dead . Do you believe this was more of a toxic Relationship or more of the cosmic mates relationship?

    6. Only Jim and Pam understood what made their relationship work, or not work a lot of the time. He cheated, he would go off on a drunken adventure and she wouldn't see him for days and I guess he wasn't the most considerate person to live with.

      She was a high-school drop-out and a runaway, she had an eating disorder, a drug problem and she was very temperamental.

      You'd think they would be both happier without each other. Yet, anytime she left, Morrison would fall into a despair and make any effort to get her back. As someone said, Pam was Jim's choice and whether people agree with that or not they should respect that she was the one he chose.

      He called her his "cosmic mate" and that's how he felt about her. He felt she had something to offer him and she clearly cared about him.

      "Pam was the 'known quantity'. He knew she cared about Jimbo, the person." - Tony Funches, Jim Morrison's friend and body guard

      It is true that Pam wanted Jim to leave The Doors and I think that speaks well of her. If she were just greedy and in it for the money she would've been pushing him to become more famous and make more money. Instead, she saw what the pressure was doing to him and she wanted to pursue poetry and writing, the things she knew he loved to do. Pam met Jim before he was a famous sex symbol/rock star and cared about him, not his image, not his fame and not his money.

      There was a mutual sense of dislike between Pam and the other three Doors. I don't know the particular's but she wasn't happy with the effect the music industry had on Jim and she obviously wasn't happy with his relationship with the band.

      As far as Pam having Jim quit the band and then four months later he was dead. Alice Cooper has been quoted as saying that people who knew Jim Morrison as a teenager were genuinely surprised, there's no exaggeration here, that Morrison lived to see his 21st birthday.

      He was just so reckless and by the time he reached legal drinking age he already had a drinking problem. By the time he got to Paris he was a sinking ship. You can see it in the pictures. It wasn't as if Jim Morrison was healthy, clean-cut and happy with life before "evil Pam" entered the picture. He was in trouble long before he met her.

      The Miami debacle was the final straw for Jim Morrison and he also had "the 'girl' from New York" aggressively stalking and harassing he and Pam on top of everything else he was dealing with and that certainly did not help his state of mind in his final months.

      Jim was not in perfect health when he left for Paris, physically or emotionally. Everything was catching up to him and one night he finally pushed his body and his mind too far.

      Pam did what she could to help him, remained by his side until the terrible traumatic end and the aftermath of Jim's death and her deep grief destroyed her in the end. It's a very sad story.

      "Pam was Jim's other half." - Ray Manzarek

    7. I thought that Pamela was going to a university when they met? Is that information that I read not true? I didn’t realize she was a high school dropout. I was also reading an article that said when they broke down the time Patricia spent with Jim It amounted to less than half a week. That certainly isn’t enough time to make someone a soulmate. Are you finding the same information as well that Patricia and Jim only spent a week together?

    8. Thank you for pointing that out.

      The story goes that Pam was 19 years old and was taking art classes when she met Jim Morrison. I had also read that she had runaway from home at the age of 16. I guess I just assumed she was a high-school dropout. Maybe she returned home and got her diploma and then came back to Los Angeles at a later date. That's probably closer to the truth.

      It should say on Courson's Wikipedia page whether or not she graduated from high school.

      According to former friends of "Kennealy", the surviving Doors, friends of Jim and Pam's and other witnesses Jim and "Kennealy" were only seen at the same place a few times, people have estimated their affair lasting maybe a week and half.

      It is possible that they may have spent more time together than that, it is acknowledged that the two exchanged some friendly correspondence so there may have been a "friends who have sex with each other" situation going on between them for a brief period. It has been confirmed that "Kennealy" saw the situation differently, or that she wanted to try and force the situation to be more meaningful and more serious than it actually was, but that Morrison did not see their friendship the same way she did.

      Having read "Kennely's" truly vicious, ugly online rants and the nasty things she has said in interviews on the topic I get the feeling that she has an unhealthy concept what a healthy relationship is and what it truly means to love and care for someone.

      Given that Pam was not exactly popular in The Doors' inner circle I'm not sure what motivation all of these people would have to lie about "Kennealy" and keep her a big secret from the public if Morrison had the deep feelings for "Kennealy" that she claims he had.

      "Kennealy", of course, has offered her own theories, it's just a shame for her that these theories are ridiculous, make no sense and that they are completely self-serving, especially since both Morrison and Courson were both conveniently dead when she offered these theories and no longer able to speak for themselves. Something "Kennealy" has obviously taken full advantage of.

      Jim Morrison was not one to be told what to do, he was not afraid to go against the grain or to upset the apple cart and if he felt that "Kennealy" was "the one", I don't think he would have had a problem letting his feelings be known. Morrison had many, many opportunities to break things off with Courson and yet he chose to remain with her.

    9. Thank you
      . I was also wondering your thoughts on Judy Huddleston? She claims a four relationship with Morrison . What is your thoughts on this book ? J acqueline Murray
      A Tale of Two Brothers: Jim Morrison & Michael Hutchence. Mixed reviews. I believe is said published . Thanks for your time .

    10. I have never read "A Tale of Two Brothers" Jim Morrison & Michael Hutchence", so I can't review it.

      If there is anything to an afterlife, maybe Jim and Michael do know each other, that's a nice thought.

      However, I am not sure what makes the two "brothers". True, the late Michael Hutchence at times copied Morrison's leather pants with a white shirt look, I have not read enough about Hutchence to know if he idolized Morrison or just liked his rock-n-roll clothing style.

      Never read that book, sounds kind of interesting though, it's an interesting concept.

    11. As far as Judy Huddleston and her ilk, I guess I have to accept that since Jim Morrison was a celebrity and that was a celebrity who led a wild life and that anyone can claim to have had a "relationship" with him.

      Maybe it is just a consequence of being so reckless and, let's face it, promiscuous.

      Here is my opinion about Judy Huddleston, this is just my take on her and her "memoir".

      I view "Love Him Madly" as just another "Kennealy"-style "memoir" and like "Kennealy" Huddleston is widely considered to be a opportunistic, delusional liar.

      It is amazing how many deep, serious, long-term relationships that Jim Morrison managed to squeeze into a very short period of time. I did the math once and if I remember correctly, Huddleston continued to date Morrison even after he was dead.

      Janet Erwin has gone on record and has disavowed Judy Huddleston, saying if she saw Jim Morrison at all it was for five minutes at a concert. Nobody backs up this woman's claims. She saw what "Kennealy" did and decided to get in on the act.

      The give-away was that this drugged-up, booze-swilling girl who had head injuries due to a car accidents and who did stints in a psych ward is able, in her senior years, to have complete, 100% recall of every single thing Jim Morrison said or did. Pamela Des Barres who wrote the forward (and I'm sure that Des Barres got a fee for writing it) said Huddleston kept "journals". Those "journals" must look like a set of encyclopedias.

      There are actual friends of Jim and Pam's who are foggy on basic things such when and how they met but that goofy Huddleston is magically able to remember every little thing after all that self-abuse and after all those years.

      This is all according to Huddleston and Huddleston alone.

      I truly do not mean to offend anyone regarding an sensitive and important topic, but if Huddleston had her little fling in the hotel room with Morrison as she claimed, if that is true, then going back a stranger's room, consenting to have sex with said stranger and this stranger does something sexually that she didn't like - that is not the definition of rape, a word Huddleston should've been sued for her use of, it is offensive to actual survivors of sexual assault.

      Even taking Huddleston at her word, as she wants us to but I don't find her at all credible, when she said stop, Morrison stopped.
      I also wonder why if Jim Morrison assaulted Huddleston the way she claims why Huddleston, according to her, made so much effort to continue seeing him. That does not make sense on any level. That would be psychologically impossible.

      If Morrison did what she claimed he did, dealing with the tearing and physical damage would take more than just jumping in the shower to recover from it. What she described inflicts damage that can take weeks and months to heal from.

      The use of the "r-word" was meant to sell books and closer to the truth is that Huddleston may have been, MAY have been, alone with Morrison once (but I, personally, don't believe she ever was).

      This book was obviously a fantasy written by Huddleston, she herself acknowledges that she is unstable. Nothing to verify her claims, another situation where we are just supposed to take her word for everything. (I was surprised that Des Barres, who wrote 'I'm With The Band', didn't see how made up all of this sounds. Des Barres is smart, she is honest and she is a talented writer.)

      These are claims, disputed and disproven claims. Hugely offensive and disputed claims, nothing more. To me it is obvious that Huddleston didn't know Jim Morrison any better than you or I did and that she is just another parasite looking to attach herself to Morrison and make a buck. I felt this book was a detailed, kinky fan fiction version of Jim Morrison.

      I know this sounds rough, but that is my take on Huddleston, and others who knew Morrison seem to feel the same way.

    12. In case you are wondering what my opinion of Linda Ashcroft is, here goes; you don't need to do any fact-checking you just have to read the book. Fiction from the first word to the last word.

      Jim Morrison definitely knew better than to date an underage girl or "jail bait", (in his dirty cover of the song "Gloria", you can find it on YouTube, he starts going to into a rap of sorts, "hey, what's your name? how old are you?". I noticed the imaginary girl's age was something he wanted to clear up - lol!)

      Ashcroft will have to explain how Morrison found the time to spend so much time with her, Morrison's career didn't last very long and he died at a young age, and she will also have to explain how Morrison managed to remain sober and coherent for such long periods of time. Those who knew him would tell you something different, sadly Jim was a hardcore alcoholic.

      It is obvious to any reader that Ashcroft's story is also made up. Ashcroft also seemed to have the American southern boy Jim Morrison speaking in a way that was decidedly British. We Americans love the way British people sound and speak but I don't think Jim Morrison walked around talking like a typical young British man.

      As I said, like a lot of celebrities, people can use the word "memoir" and make any claim they wish about someone as wild as Jim Morrison without ever being called out on it.

      It should be made clear to people that libel laws are different when it comes to writing unauthorized biographies about famous people or "memoirs" containing claims about famous people, for some reason proving libel is different in these cases (something "Kennealy", as a small-time author, knows all too well).

    13. Thanks . All very interesting . I always wondered how he would have enough time to have juggled all these long term relationships in a five year span.
      He just seemed to need a lot of alone time. Just sad there is So many different stories out there that really muddies the water making it difficult to find the truth.

    14. I don’t know if you have ever listen to this. This was an interview that was done in February 1971. You can hear Pamela On it . The interviewer gives a description

    15. You are welcome. It's unfortunate the people are allowed to exploit people in the public eye, especially when they are making claims about serious topics, claims that cannot be proven but that stick with a person's reputation anyway.

      I did hear this interview, it was strange to hear Pam speaking. She had a very soft voice (except when she was very angry with Jim from what I understand). I'm glad they got both of them on tape. Despite the flaws they both had they come across as two people who were obviously very comfortable with each other.

    16. The interviewed link that I posted ; The interview was conducted in the apartment of Diane who was Pamela’s neighbor. Pamela was living at 8216 ½ Norton Ave., West Hollywood, CA. Jim stopped my to visit that February day .
      Here is another question for you if Jim bought Pamela a house on 8021 Rothdell Trl,
      Los Angeles, CA 90046( as of last weekend now called Love Street) Why was she living in an apartment and not in the Laurel Canton house?

    17. Jim and Pam had an apartment in the same building that Diane Gardiner was renting an apartment. Jim liked to go down to Diane's apartment and use her bathtub because her bathtub was bigger and more comfortable than the tub in he and Pam's apartment.

      Jim purchased a little house for Pam in order to give her a place to go when Pam got sick of the stress and chaos of living with Jim and dealing with what comes with living with someone who is famous.

      It's well-documented that Jim and Pam, like any young couple, fought and spent time apart and that Jim could be challenging to live with.

    18. When did Jim and Pam meet? I am confused on this because certain sources state 1965 and others 1966. Wikipedia has it documented as 1965. I thought The doors were established in 1965 and that she met him at the London fog in 1966? Is Wikipedia wrong ?

    19. Let me Clarify it is stated as partner 1965 on the Pam Courson Wikipedia page.

    20. Since I'm the one who said you should check Wikipedia I guess I am the one responsible for your confusion - lol!

      From what I can gather Jim and Pam met in early 1966 at The London Fog, a club The Doors played at before they "broke on through" and that Pam was 19 and taking art classes at a local college.

      Since people tend to be a bit foggy, no pun intended, on the basic facts of Jim and Pam's first meeting it is not surprising then that Wikipedia is a little off as far as the year and date as well.


    22. This also an interesting interview . I did find A piece That said that Pamela was a high school dropout.

    23. I guess Pamela hated high school and skipped classes for the most part. Interesting video. I guess if you lead the crazy life that Jim and Pam led details get foggy and there are going to be memory lapses.

      Cue the "Kennealys", the Huddlestons and the Aschcrofts of the world to take advantage and try and cash in. (Don't think any of them succeeded in cashing in, though, despite their best efforts. "Kennealy" is still online begging strangers for money.)

    24. Would you be able to email me? My email address is at
      I bought and read the book angels dance angels die.
      I would like your thoughts on the following.
      1. Do you Believe the story that was placed in this book about Jim and the male Hollywood hustler?
      2. Did Jim and Pam really call the cops on each other? That story about him having her taken to jail over the parking tickets seems so unreal.
      3. No disrespect to her in anyway because she was a very pretty girl . I know in the 60s there was a certain type of look.
      .Pam’s one friend made a comment in the book that men dropped at her feet. Do you really believe that? You look at all of the popular actresses, models of that time and even today. Their are actresses such as Marilyn Monroe and Even Cindy Crawford that was quoted in their lifetime saying that men We’re often afraid to approach them . She was photographed with Jim in different magazines you would think a modeling agency would have contacted her she was photographed with Jim and different magazines you would think a modeling agency would have contacted her? Even in the 60s I read about stories about how a model was discovered here or there. The reason for asking this is because I read what is supposedly comments by Max think describing her.

      4. Why was she always disappearing and no one knew where she was? I mean how was she able to support herself during her breaks with Jim? It sounded like she never had a job. I read in the book what you stated is that she was a drop out but then several pages later The same friend that commented that men dropped at her feet was quoted as saying that her and Pam took in our class together at a college. Perhaps it was just an art class? I don’t understand how she could take a college course if she did not have a diploma or GED?

      5 . This one is just for fun this is the original number of the London fog give it a call
      855 652-9480

      Thanks for answering my questions and putting up with me. You can either email me or post it on here. I appreciate all of your input

  5. Patricia Keneally is definitely all over this...if you ask me..Patricia could .br harboring guilt from some kind of twisted spell that backfired..a spell she may have done to separate Pam from Jim......negative energy can have lethal force from a scorned dare you Patricia...trying to shift blame to Pam..ironic..all you have is some theoretical pretend conversation..hmm shifting blame???? Someone getting guilty??? You need to check yourself into a hospital about these delusions..Pam and Jim are in a place where you'll never be able to tear them'll never see Jim again..that's your karma for your wicked intentions..your means to separate him from her took him from you as well..keep your fake channelers and your vintage photo shop pics of you and Jim to never had his love..Pam has his love eternally..face it lose...

  6. All of the information in this "channeling session" is easily available to the public in books and on-line and has been for many years. There is nothing new or unique about this so-called "confession." And yes, it reeks of sour grapes.

    1. Yes, it is made up with a clear agenda to pretend like the couple that stuck together were not going to continue on that path. There was nothing happened when Jim passed that would pull them apart as they were both focused on the other.

  7. To vague does not ring true also I have never read or heard an interview where he ever said he was leaving the Doors everything said was he could not wait to get back and go out and support the LA women album and it appeared he wanted to change his life style some and if he did not want to be with Pamela why in Gods name would he go to Paris for what would be a 3 month tour when he could had hooked up with any number of women it does not make sense nice story R.I.P Jim and Pamela.

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  9. This is a fucking lie ... Everybody knows she has reincarnated. So much karma was created.

  10. None of you know anything at all

    1. Miss KENNELY??? Is this you? If it is, all YOU "know" is what you have gleaned from books, the media and the Internet. The only things YOU "know" is what you WISHED had happened you blithering idiot!

    2. I would ask the individual who feels that none of us know anything, who I also suspect is "the girl from New York" ("girl" from New York? You haven't been "girl" for quite some time now) to enlighten us but the most enlightening thing anyone who has read this could follow-up with is an article that is available online called "Patricia Kennealy: Your Ballroom Days Are Over Baby", an article that a woman who has a concept of the truth and of reality was kind enough to provide the public with.

      If this Kennealy felt she "loved" Jim Morrison I would hate to see how she treats those she doesn't "love".

      There is also another article that is available online called "L.A. Woman and The Last Days of Jim Morrison".

      "Girl from New York"? I know you tried to trash Marianne Faithfull to your Facebook followers for setting the record straight as far as what happened the night Jim Morrison died by accusing her of being an attention seeker (because that is not something you're guilty of at all, right?) and for "changing her story every time she tells it".

      As far as I can tell, the first time anyone really heard Marianne Faithfull discuss this topic is when she included the story in autobiography, so I don't know how many "times" she's told it or "changed" it. If Faithfull has told this story many times before why wasn't the story common knowledge among Doors fans?

      As for you, however, all anyone has to do is search "SatireKnight Kennealy" and read your very own conflicting, false and purely self-serving statements (as well as your ugly, cowardly, baseless, jealous, hate-fueled rants) to see the number of times you have changed your story.

      Also, "girl from New York", maybe you can cast suspicion on Marianne Faithfull, big maybe, but can you explain to us what the eye-witnesses who were interviewed for "L.A. Woman and The Last Days of Jim Morrison" had to gain from their statements? I mean they had no ridiculous, laugh-out-loud funny, self-contradictory, easily-disproven memoir they were trying to make money off of, unlike "the girl from New York".

      I agree Kathleen M, the only "insider information" that "the girl from New York" has is gleaned from other people's experiences, second-hand rumors, what she has read in books and in the media with a huge dose of self-serving delusion and some idiotic idea that everyone was prepared to take her word for everything thrown in for good measure.

      I'd wish the "girl from New York" luck, but she'll never move past the fact that she was unable to break up Jim Morrison and Pamela Courson-Morrison' Jim's muse, his "cosmic mate", his common-law wife and, in Jim's words, his "only companion in life".

      Stick to ripping Iman Bowie to your Facebook followers, "girl from New York" and at least make some attempt to move past the whole "Jim chose Pam instead of me" thing.

      Wonder how long it will take "the girl from New York" to try and convince the public that her "relationship" with Bowie was far deeper and more meaningful than anyone and anyone who knew Bowie personally ever knew, that Bowie never really loved Iman and that Bowie kept "the girl from New York" a big secret because he knew how jealous people can be (yes, this is a version of events "the girl from New York" publicly stated and tried to sell to the public as far as her claims about Jim Morrison).

      ("Girl from New York"? Have you "visited" with Andy Morrison lately? Are you still tracking down Jim Morrison's former girlfriends and taking weird, creepy pictures with them?)

    3. "Psychic" person (Kennealy)? You really need to work on your "divine" skills. You really, seriously need to work on them, you and your "psychic" abilities couldn't even get some basic facts right.

      From 'Jim Morrison: Friends Gathered Together' by Jim Morrison's close friend Frank Lisciandro (you know, someone who actually HAD a relationship with Jim Morrison?):

      "Frank Lisciandro: Did you have a feeling that there was a strong relationship going on between Jim and Patricia when you went to pick Jim up at her apartment? I mean, were they reluctant to part, were the lovey-dovey?

      Leon Barnard: Oh, no, I mean when I got there, she lives in a very casual apartment in the Greenwich Village area. No, it wasn't at all like that. I don't think any claims were placed on either of them, by either one; just like we've had THREE DAYS TOGETHER of fun or just being together. I didn't feel there was any special connection between the two of them.

      page 299"

      So, no, Pamela did not walk in on Jim Morrison and "the 'girl' from New York" and Jim Morrison did not have Pamela "apologize" to "the 'girl' from New York".

      Are you sure you can channel spirits? Because, in case you didn't know, spewing libelous bullshit and channeling spirits are two different things, dear.

      Are you ever going to enlighten us on what it is you "know". And, no, sorry, information that can be easily gleaned from interviews, books, magazines, the Internet or from other people's experiences does not count as "knowing" anything.

  11. A new book is coming out aying that drug dealers came Jim herion in a bar bathroom, so how can pam have done it??

    1. Pam didn't do it. The truth is out and a certain Patricia Kennealy HATES that the truth is out. There is a good article online called, "L.A. Woman and The Last Days of Jim Morrison" which explains everything. I do believe this "psychic session" was written by Patricia Kennealy - Jim Morrison's stalker who tried to profit off of a truly laughable "memoir"? Kennealy has a "Single White Female" thing going on when it comes to Pamela. Claiming to contact Pamela Courson's spirit and putting all of these baseless, libelous "confessions" in her mouth. Cowardly, tasteless, offensive and PATHETIC on the part of the spineless, jealous author. (To find out more about Miss Kennealy you can Google an article called "Patrica Kennealy: Your Ballroom Days Are OVER!" by Janet M. Erwin. Very revealing and a very different take on how Kennealy harassed and abused Pamela, and Jim Morrison, the man Kennealy claims to "love", than the pathetic fantasy Kennealy spun in her "memoir". She is a joke.)

  12. It isn't written in proper english.A mix of lies/half truths from poor pat kennel(pun intended).ACCEPT IT! JIM&PAM LOVE eachother 4 EVER

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  14. This sounds like it was written by the "girl from New York". Or was this written by a fan of "the girl from New York"?

    It's so funny that "the girl from New York", Patricia Kennealy, birth name Kennely, to this day, has never moved past Morrison's humiliating rejection of her (even "the girl from New York" confirms this in her most famous fictional work, her..."memoir").

    You mentioned Diane Gardiner. Gardiner chewed "the girl from New York" out something fierce, right there in the Doors' office, while "the girl from New York" whined in her own defense, like a typical bully, for her treatment of Pamela. Surprised a "psychic" like you didn't know that.

    Pam "murdered" Jim? That ugly, libelous, baseless rumor was started by the "girl from New York", repeated many times by the "girl from New York" and it has been thoroughly debunked by Marianne Faithfull (she was living with the dealer who sold Morrison the drugs that killed him), a number of eye-witnesses, including the paramedic who responded to the emergency call that night. Pamela Courson was NOWHERE near Jim Morrison during the time he was consuming alcohol and snorting heroin at the same time.

    By the by, do we know where "the girl from New York", you know, the jealous, enraged, rejected stalker, was on the weekend of July 3, 1971? Does "the girl from New York" have an alibi as to her whereabouts at the time of Pamela's death? Should I start spreading rumors about "the girl from New York"? I mean, someone with the sick, violent fantasies that "the girl from New York" has ("Blackmantle" anyone?), the fact that "the girl from New York" has publicly admitted to having Jim Morrison in her sights for a very long time before she positioned herself to meet him - she is a highly skilled, natural born stalker that "girl from New York" - only to be flatly rejected, wouldn't SHE be the one with the true motive to "murder" Jim Morrison?

    "L.A. Woman and The Last Days of Jim Morrison", available online and an excellent read. Also available online and an even better read, "Patricia Kennealy: 'Tiffany' Talks. Your Ballroom Days Are Over BABY!" by Janet M. Erwin.

    I don't expect "the girl from New York" to let go of her lies and her b.s., she is a truly malignant, vengeful, shameless individual who has painted her truly stupid self into quite a corner that she can't back out of, but I am surprised that there are still people who will take the word of an unhinged "Pagan priestess" over the word of Jim Morrison's friends, the surviving Doors, Diane Gardiner herself as well as former friends of "the girl from New York".

    Using Pamela Courson's death (that's Pamela Courson-Morrison to YOU, MISS Kennely-Kennealy, never married, minus the Morrison), to promote 'Trish's sick, ugly, shameless, self-serving, hate-fueled, jealousy-fueled agenda. Sick, VERY sick. SHAME ON YOU!

    (Oh, "psychic" person? Please ask 'Trishy Kennely-Kennealy how her "visit" with Jim Morrison's younger brother Andy went. The "visit" where Kennely-Kennealy tried to pass of letters and poems as being written by Jim Morrison only to have a handwriting expert reveal that they were FORGED by Kennealy herself? Also ask Kennely-Kennealy about the time she tried to rig an answering machine message that was supposed to sound like it was from Jim Morrison. She publicly admits to doing this. This pig has also debunked her own claims regarding Morrison, in a book called "Rock Wives". Kennely-Kennealy so wishes that everyone would just forget about her statements in that book, but has never denied them either.)

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    1. Thanks Rhiannon :-) This HAD to be Kennealy. She'll never let it go.

  16. Pat Kennealy has stooped to a desperately new low in writing or commissioning this pile of crap. What a vile old pig she is. No wonder Jim couldn't get a way from her fast enough. She has stalked him into and beyond the grave! Such a pathetic loser!

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